...yeah and now what am i doing? wtf
everybody says do not regret for what you've done ...i haven't regretted anything and i'm not going to,either.
so why the hell am i still feeling like that?
strange.the only word that can describe life.
and confused.the only word that can describe me.
still here.waiting for sth.maybe the end.maybe life.maybe both.something almost impossible.
and it comes out in a different way. you thought that it was just something unimportant.
and in the end your opinion has changed.your feelings have changed.nothing is like before.no matter what you say.but i'll try,i promise . i'll try to go on and forget some specific moments.no i won't forget them...i'll just try not to think about them and be like that.
like what?like i am right now.alone.more than ever.in my psychotic carmic fear (okey this one's stolen from a song) .unable to do everything i used to. unable to think.my mind is not working anymore. yeah i just need you to know.now you know.now.after a quite painful moment for me.
was it a moment? or maybe a century? like a thousand years.that's better i think.but in reality i'm not thinking right now.i'm doing nothing.just being here.waiting for something again.maybe for someone.and then i realise who i'm still waiting for,whispering to myself :...just go away.run and save yourself from being sad (more than sad) once again....and what happens if i do'n wanna leave?if i care about .you.?
and you don't even seem to undrestand.
but i'll try to overcome and become like the old me.
i don't know if you mean what you said.about being friends.i hope you want to.
i'll be here,even if you don't wanna trust me (anymore?).i'll be here like a friend to you.