what is friendship?i don't know :)

woohoo! a whole week has passed and i haven't written a word here :|
how did it happen? i don't know...

maybe i was just too busy to express myself, maybe i didn't want to...didn't want to think.

didn't want to think what i feel, because i don't really know...

what i know is that i really miss some people...

and it is really difficult to me (and to everybody) to recover when i know that i've lost a friend (A*)

even if i understood it after 6 months, i know i 'll never be the same...

the problem is that we weren't normal friends...just for difficult times...when one of us needed the other...only for when one of us was sad...but this isn't what a real friendship should be.

true friends are next to you when you're sad,and when you're happy,too...

that's why some friendships do not really last...because some people wanna exploit you...and use you...

and i'm so happy cause i think that i've found some true friends...

some people that i know i LOVE.and i hope that they feel something similar about me ,too...

i'm not saying that i've got plenty of friends...

but i think i have some true ones...

so i just wanna thank them <3

and tell them that i'll be here whenever they need me...even if you think i don't mean it (K*,S*)

oneday i'm gonna write an article describing each one of you (don't be scared-.-)

kisses,

rainmaker :)

p.s. i thought that i had more friends , but i've understood that i just should not trust everybody so easily, cause some of them truly wanna hurt you.

p.s.2. there are some other friends whom you really wanna help but you can't...and some others who just come and leave...

p.s.3 ...and of course there's the third kind ...where you think that some people are your friends but in the end you start having different kind of feelings about them...like you don't really wanna see them anymore...or like you want them to be sth more than friends to you...and then the whole friendship thing you had-even if you didn't know them for a long time- is destroyed...or you just feel that there's sth hollow between you...